the hims

these days you never leave the house before dark
and it gets dark at 4:30
soon you will have to leave the house before light
it doesn't get light until 7:20
and you're not ready for that
you're angry at him
for never being able to talk about it
you just want to stop blaming yourself
and you try to blame him
but it never works
there's a new him
and maybe he's better than the old him
or maybe he's just the same him
his kindness disguises
the bad parts
and you don't know what he thinks this is
or what he wants
but he told the bodega guy
when he thought
no one was listening