I fall out of that

I land on my birthday

here's what I have

to take stock by

cake and its makers

the people who pull

people to me

even meager

feels better than not

to dare counting

to try to blur

the problem of birthdays

step out with one

best friend to hide

in a larger party

if my love makes

cake for me to like it

I feel better here

aaaaaaaaaaaalphabet

a lemon thyme, a smattering of claps, a bogus cigarette, a screw, a kite uphung

in the tree and, a blistering reproach, a b c d, a e f g, a h, a lizard tail shaped toy,

a soaping leghair, a for two, a plus, a way you like your neighbor, a aaaaaaaaaah,

a baby on the lawn, a stock and pillory, a ss, a bangle circulates her wrist, a lambykin,

a basic sabotage, a kale, a labeling gone off, a sundering, a choking size, a ancestor

was marrying a duke, a deal on bagel bites, a alive hill at the top, a pilot flighted

I never let a teacher near

who claimed to know what's up

coiled gurus mellowly remind

my classmates how they had been wild

these blue-eyed-feeling men with swollen laps

praise their female students' vulnerable prose

I can hate them but I can't help smiling at them

but my heart is quick for the women who stepped back

sweatered with paper necks who knew

who would be frightening for me to read and when

and when I asked them for advice refused

if my eyes decide on you

you become from shifting

into lines affirming

and the rest is background

does not corroborate except

by going

then you can only move

toward or from me

swaying like one walking

over nothing on not much

I can see your feet

soles flashing and your heels

round to come down

till they insist on the ground

and I can see it

if I can

I look into what you know

like the air you take into you

what emits you

isn't you but as you touch it

matters

if as a given you don't take me

up then I will see you going to

the library or from the store

but I'll have to look again

not sure who is