Packers vs Seahawks

I'm watching the football game

I don't even know who I am anymore

Fever Dream 3

I swam in four inches of water

you had green clay on your face

I smeared chocolate,
or was it hemp clay,
or was it shit,
all over mine

Fever Dream 2

I stand and move
outrageous
the tip of my tongue like a lost cow
the jewel between my breasts sparkling testament
I stand and move on soft feet
raid cabinets
pass gas
turn my shirt inside out
deny everything
I stand and move through a black house
sleeping standing up
fever has me in its arms
I wish I could stand and move in the dark
move from this bed to the perfect
one
where perfect arms fold around me
brush sweaty bangs off
 my forehead
and I disappear
all the pain leaking out like sweat
outrageous
I am 30 years old.
I am busted up broken
unacceptable
I've run out of beds
I'm hungry,
nothing to eat

fever dream

In my dream
In my body
my body
still coming through